Salvation

That day, but for small C, and her boyfriend pulled the pain I kiss my lips nails I cried aloud, he will not just break into my bedroom, shaking with her boyfriend beat the meal. I straightened clothes, cold arms folded staring at all, as if the whole thing has nothing to do with me. Boyfriend wiped his mouth from the ground up the blood, looked at me bitterly, running for the door away. His face was flushed, red with rage, pointing at me shouted: "You only 16 years old! You look at what you fall into, and how do you worthy of your mother!" He did not mention my mother I would not bother with He argued that he could not help mentioning that I really had. "My mother?! What makes you qualified to mention my mom said!" I am fiercely pushed him away, ran to the door.
Yes. Him, that person is my father. But since my mother died, "Dad," the word became my taboo. I'll never forget how my mother is a gesture of despair, and fell from the 15th floor, dancing like a wonderful bloom in magnificent scarlet, the color was filled with rain, red white white of that summer. Since then, I became one look just like the hedgehog, fearless, cynical.
I walk aimlessly in the street, a small C suddenly rushed out from the corner, pulling my arm onto my corner. "I did not think of your blood cold." He put me on the wall by the wearer, so I could not move. I did not say anything, it's still so proud and cold greet his eyes. "Dare to play me? You will regret the day." He smiled and meaningful to me, eyes fiercely not half points. He put down my heavy, and walked away. I suddenly fell to the ground, aching muscles. I knew he was not good, I did not expect so early exposure. I directed back in his heart cursed the numerous bastard.
While I do not know where to go when the pocket cell phone rang. Small H classmate's name flashes on the screen. "What do you want?" I asked impatiently picked up the vocal. "Oh all right, thank you lend me that the physical reference, I have used well, also when you ah?" He said, stumbling over the phone. "I do not." I put down such a sentence ready to hang. That reference is to the man I bought, but I do not want to receive his love. "Hey how do you? I did not put the book dirty, did not broke, did not break, why do not ah? Is too I've used?" Little H on the phone talking to himself like a wordy, I am a not listen. However, this stupid pastime pastime touches can be used.
I sat opposite a small H, head down, breathing in the hands of the beverage drinking. Inadvertently looked up and saw him on the thin dense amount of sweat. I said: "You hot?" He looked at me panic, but quickly bowed his head: "No, no." My heart burst of funny. The small H, study, a long family background is also good but also can be chosen people shy tight, look just like a stupid. "Money with no money to use ... ... ... ... how to do ..." I muttered to himself biting straw. "I have!" Little H is eager eyes wide open look. I have white at him: "I do not want other people's money." Ponder over and over again, I got up and pounded his desk: "I want to support themselves!" Stared across the small H: "You do not go to school?" "Yes, trouble you with the teacher say, I will not go. "Yes, I do not spend the money man, I want to support themselves.
Two
Humming a ditty all the way to go on the way home, a small H in the edge Pidianpidian follow me. "Do not go to school on so happy?" Little H's voice slightly lonely. "You realize this is not my kind of honors students feel inferior." I said lightly. Then I heard what he recited a few: "1,2,3,4 ..." "A total of 11, do a few." I said idly. He was surprised, said: "So many pierced ears, the pain does not really hurt you?" I did not answer him, just keep the street to enjoy the scenery. That scene was just as casual but stinging broke into my eyes.
It was a hotel. Separated by thick glass, I saw a woman and sitting face to face. Man hand stroking his forehead in one hand and fist on the table, a bitter look. Hand to hand on the woman the man's hand on the table, and saying something. I do not care about behind the small H, and flew home.
I looked at the clock on the wall, wrote a note on the table: betrayal of my mother's fate, you will know soon. I picked up a fruit knife, out of the wrist, cutting a little bit of tingling down ... ... suddenly filled from the wrist to the body. Pointer to stop walking the wall, large tracts of red Akira halo my eyes, my eyes seemed to emerge a mother lying in a pool of blood in the pale face ... ...
I woke up, the white room the moment so my brain short circuit. I struggled to get up, I saw the arm studded tubes. Just then, the man came from the doorway carrying a heat box. He woke up to see me, quickly put down the insulation box, help me firmly secured. I then note that he seems to old age overnight, vicissitudes and haggard. "I'll give you a chicken stew, Bubu body." He filled a good soup-to-front of me. I move also did not move. He sighed: "Do not worry, do not you agree, I will not let any woman into our house door." "Oh, yes, you have the students see you. Ask me what you eat, you know Love you buy bananas to go bananas. "
Just then, a small H came panting. "There are students in this with you you, I breathe out." He finished turned and went out. "How do you come?" I asked a small H. "Let me tell you the class teacher, to drop out to parents to the school I call you did not get through ... ... and then go to your house your dad told me you hurt ..." I'm too lazy Daqiang. "You're not ... ... really want to go die? Very scary you know?" Small H the fruit down, shaken said. "I'm not dead yet not scary. Hey, I'm hungry to end the soup." I feel comfortable command said. His robust, heavy-handed reach for soup handed to me. "I hand how to drink?" I stared at him snappily. He said panic; "that I ... Hey you ..." Then I would scoop a spoonful of feed. "In the future not the case, your father is very worried about you." He Qieqie said. "Do not you tube. Besides, I count well ahead of time, I did not intend to die in vain." Contented I wiped his mouth. The remaining H an incredible expression of small Leng Leng, carrying a bowl.
After discharge, the pillow under my bedroom more than a pile of money. Attached a note: Do not hurt yourself, I beg you. Not without my heart touched. However, for the mother's departure, I still can not get, I just want him to die alone to make up!
Three
I'm sure the work place, although I am strongly opposed to the small H do, of course, for me he promised confidentiality.
I am in a bar with bands, although it will encounter a lot of harassment, but still liked the job. In addition to money, but also in this turbid environment, many are not happy to unconsciously vent out. So, after a month. I do not know how to deal with personal things that I drop out, in short, do anything I think he is justified.
Until one day I have a private room named to accompany singing. I had to step into that private room. Azeri lot of room, men and women, all kinds. Of course, the most prominent, or sitting in the middle of a small C. Cuddle him full of scantily clad women, smiles to his cigarette lighter, fed fruit. And he was a very enjoyable expression. This picture I feel like vomiting. He picked up the microphone evil with a smile: "we believe it or not, this girl's blood is cold!" Whistles and laughter suddenly coming from all directions. "How do you know this girl?" "Of course knowledge is not general knowledge." Do not have deep meaning behind the little C said. "Really? How it taste like ah? Is not correct ah?" A hideous tattoo of a man who has said as he gearing up close to me. "Oh, never mind. Not only did not taste fresh, also beating." Pretended to a small C sorry look. I quietly slowly move to the door. Suddenly, behind him was shoved one, I go lie ahead, knock to the forehead on the corner coffee table, a few drops of blood drip onto the floor. A man pulled up my tattoo, put his hand into my underwear. I held back the forehead of pain, reach out and bitter rejection of the tattoo man a slap in the face. "Oh, there temper? Personality, I like!" Tattoo man hit my face feeling was laugh. Then, the game is a group of hooligans. I was the same as a ball from the arms of a man pushed to the arms of another man, pulled to and fro, along with the still violent kissing, all over the laughter, whistles and arrogant slap in the face from time to time flying, My mouth began to resound with the sweet fishy.
In this way, I was tortured messy clothes, dying. Eventually, the tattoo man I've broken a ripped shirt, and ripped off my underwear. At this point, I have upper body naked, cover your chest, my exhausted body strength. But they still miss me, but the herd to tear my pants. I swear, I never flew a moment like this you want to die, including my mother lying in a pool of blood, including a fruit knife I picked up a little bit down towards the wrist cut ... ...
In my desperate to be added, blurred sense of time, the door was suddenly kicked open, break into two people, followed by the sound of fighting. I think I saw the blur in the personal vicissitudes and haggard eyes the anger of the light injection. I felt my body was draped in a dress, then I was picked up a soft nest in the arms, it feels like cotton, like clouds. I was very sleepy ... ...
... ...
Woke up again when they are large tracts of white. In the end what happened, I rubbed his head pain. I got up and saw a small bed sleeping tummy H. I get out of bed ready to pour water to drink, accidentally awakened by a small H. He looked up and I just saw, gauze wrapped around his head. I was surprised at him, he smiled and said: "Nothing, small injuries." Suddenly my mind flashed the vicissitudes of that obscure the face and fight scenes. I anxiously asked: "that person? Is he?" Flashing in his eyes: "That ... ... uncle went out to buy lunch you had." I have no doubt. "Oh yeah, the doctor said you okay, just been too scared, you need a good rest." I nodded, drinking water quickly and to sleep.
Four
I dreamed a group of people around the shore of a packed. I clawed through the crowd, come to my eyes is a puddle of blood red lake, floating inside a person. Frightened people pointing. Gradually the man floating past, distorted face broke into my eyes, I suddenly screamed scared ... ...
I shoved it sat up in bed, sleeping little H to shake again: "that person? Where is he? You are not cheating me?" Dream scene so realistic I shudder. Small H bleary-eyed at me, half did not regain consciousness. I let him rushed to the door, but it happened crashed into the arms of a nurse. I am crazy shaking the shoulders of nurses: "My dad does?! My father?!" Nurse looked at me frightened, not far from one finger to. I ran down the direction she was referring to, the thing that catches my eye is a bolt from the blue! White lying in bed as he had been a white cloth covered in the body.
I rushed like crazy to go, burst into tears. I have never cried, even in her mother's funeral, I still like a hard bottle is not life sculpture, never leave a half tear. Can at this time, I felt what it meant to piercing! "Dad ... Dad ... ... ... ... ... sorry ... sorry ... I'm not a good daughter ..." I can no longer cry myself. I wish I was lying in this bed I have now, not my father. "Do not leave me ... do not leave me alone ... why ... why I'm alive! Why only me alive! ..."
"Who says you have to leave, who said that only you alive?" A familiar voice from behind. I am prosperous and stop crying, his face slowly turned to tears, leaning on his face I saw love and affection of small H and helpless father smiling at me. I stood up and threw his father's arms, unbridled cried aloud together. "Well, well, good, do not cry, it's all a big girl." Coax me like a child as he patted me on the back side edge, said. "Even strangers can get your 'Chrysostom' shouted 'dad', that I have honored can also get it?" I left his arms, looked at his loving face dripping shouted pumping pumping sound "father." His sense of humor replied: "thank Her Majesty the Queen." I suddenly breaks through his tears.
Back to the ward, I photographed a small slap on the head H: "You idiot! My dad say nothing to you straight on the line, and evasive of doing." He looked at me and touched his head wronged: "My uncle was wound more more, I'm not afraid of you worried that you would like to deceive you two days! "he said, I noticed that my father not only gauze wrapped around his head, with arms and legs are wrapped around. I hastened to my father who volts, check the wound. He poured a little embarrassed, flattered, said: "no harm, no harm." Then my father put the case of a full day to tell me. The original, one month can not find my father, anxious to find a small H will ask for my whereabouts. In the father's repeated requests, the small H told my father the truth. And that day, my father intends to take me back, good communication with me and advised me to go back to school. Thus, under the leadership of a small H, I happened to see that fuzzy scene. "But the two of you fight so many people ..." I have some hesitation. "I'm an early age by my mother forced to grow up practicing taekwondo. I did not expect also come in handy." Little H said proudly. "However, we rushed to see that you have been bullied, I would direct the police, good police to also timely, now the bad guys are locked up." Little H added. "It's strange, they are in jail, how do you will be fine?" I said suspiciously. Dad smiled and looked kind of small H. I suddenly understood. I picked up the apple on the table fiercely bite, muttered vague: "amazing money ah?" Dad laugh and small H, the whole room suddenly filled with the taste of happiness.
Five
After discharge, all went back to the original track. No, it's track.
As I returned to school the night before, my father took my hand and my long talk for a long time.
"Now, you grow up, lift the misunderstanding of the time." Sighed my father, with his right.
"You always think your mother's death is caused by the fact, I have a very good relationship with your mother, or that is wishful thinking. Seventeen years ago, your mother has a very handsome boyfriend, they are in love, the man to a soldier you have to wait until his mother returned from military service, but it is mended until the train he was riding the bridge fall car crash news. your mother suddenly collapsed, the whole person as a vegetative state generally sluggish. I, as your mother at the time of admirers, watching how all this heartache. your mother's mother, that is, your grandmother, it is sad curse them Nie Yuan. my grandmother, your mother's good to see you in the eyes, in mind. six months after your grandmother to your mother marry me. married, we changed the city life, under the care of my, your mother gradually restored the vigor, with vitality. just from your mother 'wake up' after, but then did not mention the past, when I thought your mother determined to forget the past, choose to accept life now. ... ... I did not expect students to meet until three years ago, someone accidentally forgot to say of the mouth mentioned the past. your mother has returned to face 34 years ago, sluggish without vitality. I was scared. Who knows your mother actually all right, she calmly told me that she remembered something she wanted to to deal with, you know it selective amnesia? the original did not mention the year because of selective amnesia and can not remember, she said students told her that when her boyfriend did not die, but more serious injuries in the local treatment of delayed meet the day and a year later, the men returned home fully recovered, but that your mother has been married and happy life with the message, so the men had to leave, disappeared in all line of sight. say three years ago, your mother decided to embark on a journey to find him, I did not stop, I know, not me, I eventually unable to retain. Three months later, your mother came back she told me that he was dead, this time is really dead. Then they laughed and I realized something was wrong, the next day, accompany you every day my mother, out of fear of her accident. but the fate of the people get. you remember that the world is a heavy rain it? day, you called to say you want me to go to dinner comes the reckoning, I rush to pick you up. back when they see your mother has been lying on the ground floor, beautiful and despair ... perhaps, your mother always Seventeen years ago deep in pain and unable to extricate themselves, and ultimately choose to follow the man away, while you insist that I got him for days your mother angry, heartbroken mother jump under the floor, then I hate to put the bones in the ... "
At this point, I had the burst into tears. "You are very great." I said. Dad waved a wry smile, his eyes showing sadness imperceptible. "That woman ... ... that is how the hotel is it?" I asked. "Her name is Lin and I love your mother how long, how long she loved me." Faint father said. My mouth fell open. "The ... ... can not afford." I looked down apologetic. "Nothing, fortunately you finally grow up, talk to you to say these things, and my heart much more relaxed." Dad hearty smile. "Then why not tell me before? You told me that I know that it can not misunderstand you." I am not willing to ask. "" Because the light is not enough to understand, but also understanding. You did not touch love, I tell you, how can you appreciate the big people's emotional entanglements it? "My father's eyes light reveals a sly, I am not reflect over, froze in place.
Dad got up and walked into the bedroom, and went out for a while, meaningful asked: "Even my daughter knows that cherish the people around him, then can I also cherish the happiness?" I suddenly realized, suddenly ashamed flushed. By this time, my father has the cunning of the "bang" shut the door. I beat his bedroom door: "Dad, do not talk nonsense Oh, I can look down that stupid." "Liar heart rate will accelerate." Room father's voice came faintly. I subconsciously put his hand on his chest, thinking it is true. Surprisingly, at this time but suddenly the door opened, I quickly hands down, but still he saw. I stood there embarrassed, the father did not laugh at me, but Languo my head in my forehead gently kiss: "My daughter and lively, a long absence." I saw his eyes flashing a little bit of tears. "And Aunt Lin married, bless you." I smiled at him, it actually fills the eyes with tears.
First day back to school, a small sticky gooey H will come up to me struck up a conversation. "That ... you did not have chemical reference books, give me through this." Skilled he said. I stared at him: "trying to use? You can not buy any books at home?" See I see through his ruse, he stammered: "I would like other people, and how?" "Do not think I do not know , the day the person is that you hold me! dare disarray of me, bully me now let you know in the end! "I ran after him full campus, bursts of summer wind blew from the ears, the original was actually living so beautiful.
This salvation, in a strong affection and love in the beautiful sweet ending.
Bloom off worthy to be straight off, no flowers be empty Mo broken branches. Treasure in front of people, is the most important, is not it.